Sunday, February 22, 2015

Anxiety, Guilt, Avoidance

So normally, I am happy posting away at my blog in a sea of pillows and warm blankets.

This is the normal habitat of a blogger.


Lately though, I have been a bit busy, and have not had a chance to post.




I totally did all these things.
In one month.
...
Yes.



Okay, these were lies.

I have fallen into a cycle that I fall into frequently that nearly defeats me every time:

Anxiety, Guilt, Avoidance.

I mentioned this a little with my post about LAUNDRY, but here is a different situation:

I drank tea from a cup right before bedtime, and left it on the night stand while I slept.

The next morning, I have forgotten about the mug, and so it sits untill that night, when I notice it again.


Thus, the cycle begins.



ANXIETY


GUILT


AVOIDANCE



And this is why I have not posted in a month.

On a regular basis this cycle takes hold of me, and I know it's an integral part of my depression, and there is nothing wrong with that. I just need to learn from past events, and try harder next time.

...and take my medicine.

...and not watch horror movies.

...or have caffeine. 

Boy this is hard trying to be emotionally and mentally healthy! 

If you are struggling with depression, anxiety, or any mental illness, then just remember: